The Vaule of Getting Real.

Love is such a driving force in this world.

Everyone wants it, everyone is looking for it, and many people are constantly guilty believing that they need it from the wrong people. I know I’ll come off judgmental for the rest of this but I’ve been guilty of this too and maybe with this disclaimer included you’ll give me the benefit of the doubt.

For no reason that I could really understand I’ve had a desire to get to know a certain acquaintance of mine better. This particular person and I share mutual friends, a mutual romantic partner, and I just felt like I could learn a lot from him. Unfortunately, on New Year’s Eve at a mutual friend’s party in a drunken act of friendship I told him all this and like any normal person he completely avoided me for the rest of the night. However upon seeing him Friday and apologizing for being a weirdo, I received a text the following day, a lunch invitation.

This last Saturday was confusing, confusing and excellent. Lunch began at the Yan Flower at 4:30PM continued till 6:30, progressed to buying smokes and a jam session at my house, then a run to get whiskey and the conservation just continued throughout until midnight when we were both so drunk EVERYTHING we had been talking about all started to make too much sense. Occurrences like these are rare and I wish I could get real with more people on a more regular basis because being honest with someone often ends up being the most fun I can remember having.

If I wasn’t a Christian, and in fact if I was 100% sure that Christianity was a false pursuit, then I’m sure that I would pity Christians so absolutely because everything that drives them is based on their beliefs. When I hear people confess this same kind of faith in another human being my heart goes out for them in the same way. However this faith, even though I’m near sure it’s misplaced, must be admired.

But here’s the deal. We can never be Jesus for somebody. We can attempt to try and show them the same love that he showed the world but no matter how invested we are we aren’t perfect so obviously we won’t show them the exact same kind of perfect agape love He demonstrated. And please don’t even get me started on the fact that we can’t SAVE them. But how do you explain this to someone who isn’t a Christian? It’s something you can only hope to explain to someone who understands the way in which Jesus has loved them and even then your point may fail to come across.

Don’t get me wrong, for a human, this guy was doing a F---ing damn good job at loving someone but what he wanted for her she can only get from God and what he wanted from her he could only get from God. Hopefully I spoke with a love that was boosted by God working in me because that’s the only love is really shown.