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Well it’s been awhile since my last blog entry… I think that’s because I usually only add to this thing when things are kind of sad. When I stopped updating regularly things were going great! I had girlfriend who I thought loved me but was waiting for me to say it first, a dynamite grad school application that I felt confident was just waiting to be approved and a secure job that I could work indefinitely.

Unfortunately however, it turns out that the Social Work program as SJ State is super impacted this year and I didn’t get accepted, which sucks considering on July 1st I also lost my job as the result of some bureaucratic BS. And you guessed it, right when I would need support the most, Emily decides to modify the relationship to look like something like monogamous best-friends that don’t kiss or hold hands. Here’s the problem with that picture: BEST FRIENDS CALL EACHOTHER. Now I better be careful right here because I could very easily go on a rant about how bad Emily sucks but it’s unnecessary because this blog is basically a tool for me to express things I’m having a hard time summarizing in my head and I’ve already exhausted myself trying to figure her out. (And smearing someone on the internet isn’t my style).

So here I am no grad school, no job, and no girlfriend. In less than the span of a month all my strongest ties to Santa Cruz have been cut. I have to believe that God has a cool plan for me, and I thinking it might be the mission field. Maybe do a “Youth With A Mission” Discipleship Training School? I have really close friends that run one in Chile. It leaves in January and I’m getting unemployment until then, but that’s 6 months away. I’ll go crazy without doing anything for six months. Peace Corps? That’s a pretty long commitment, but what else am I going to do… Maybe just find a new social service job, reapply to San Jose State and keep on volunteering with Vintage Faith, keep on playing music in the band, and find an older cool Christian girlfriend.

I do have a lot to be thankful for too. With my last checks and vacation time pay out I have more money in the bank than I ever had before, and apparently I’ll be receiving 292 dollars a week in unemployment insurance. Also I’ve been getting to exercise regularly and sleep more. It’s been fun staying out late with friends and I’ve done well so far with not spending too much money. Just this last weekend I participated in my friend’s motorcycle club’s event and tended bar at a friend’s cowboy themed wedding. At church this last Sunday I went in for prayer and the guy I talked too recommended that I enjoy unemployment for a month and take two 20 minute breaks everyday to just pray to God and ask for his guidance and he felt confident I’d have an answer if I did that for a month.

Alright, that’s the plan.